Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Questa Primavera


Crooning on my STEREO:
Pledging My Love by JOHNNY ACE

During one of my carefree days in St. Petersburg, I taunted a generic statue of Cupid to his face. I said, "You are a selfish prick. How many more times do you intend to wank me?" The museum guards chased me out. Nah, kidding. Cupid gave me a Russo-passive smirk which insitgated my desire to hack his pretty face. No, no. I have to give credit to anger management.

Fast forward a few months. And if you may recall, I wrote an extremely emo post sometime back in December 2006. And yes, I displayed my vulnerability. And I exploded my sob story to the world that all the men I was involved with were either pissers, bastards or the type of assholes that are featured in Cleo's Annual Eligible Bastards.

Well, Cupid's wanking came to a halt. Through an intense chapter of meeting a significant other, I have found strength in life through love.



Love is a strong entity. And unconditional. My mother once told me that a long distance relationship is a test of maturity. The test is even greater when he is, let's say, your first love.

This Spring is one of the most beautiful. After a series of exhaustive work travels to Bangkok and Cannes in the past few weeks, I detoured and returned to Perugia. My incentive came in the form of four days.

And I found myself attempting to freeze time.

The whole process became sublimely sad, but devastatingly beautiful. I recall leaving Nice with a schoolgirl's grin, to sharing a kiss with him on opposite walkalators in Fiumicino. Then there was the train ride where he pointed out Cinecitta to me; a place that is incredibly close to my heart and dreams.

From then on, everything was perfect. It was so perfect.

But, like your typical Korean soap, a happy duo had to part. That dreadful feeling is familiar, i was overwhelmed by the same fleet of thoughts as the time when I had to leave home for a few semi-unproductive years in Britain.

I miss him. I miss being with him. I never knew that Nuotando Nell'aria can be the song that can shatter my fragile soul. Reason being; he had whispered the lyrics into my ears the night before I left.


Cupid has thrown me into an Orpheus-inspired labyrinth of questions. Why am I stressing over the pending deal of a nonsensical TV programme? Who gives a damn if your fax had not reached your supplier in time? Why do you even bother with friends who backstab and those leaches who lick the arses of society?

I took some time off in Bali. Everything was nice. But I longed to smile the way I did when I was with him a few weeks ago.



But life has always been good to me.

10 comments:

Jenn said...

hi Lynn...being in love and being with that special someone is basically `just like heaven'. Drowns in that euphoria of love..dear friend. and of course..u can still can smile sweetly, uninhibited with life's passion (according to Senorita LyN..yeah)...peace & luv alwez..

lilyliverbird said...

larling, glad you are back blogging. You look hawt as usual

eyeris said...

wahlau, an update! Must buy 4D... :D

sicko said...

always the hawtie. i must drop by your home one of these days to meet all your young single gfs. :D

Beer Brat said...

So sweet i have toothache just by reading. Aiyo.

And the pics. Aiyo.

;)

Rt Hon Sir Cipan Nougat-Tenuk said...

Seperti dun-ia,
Ana yang punya-aaaaa.

The joy of falling in love is exquisite,

The pain of falling out even more so.

Then again, none of us would want to
miss out on the experience itself.

Right?

Ameera said...

Aww Lyn. Glad you're feeling it babe. I dunno if I can ever go through a long-distance relationship. This is a reminder that I should be grateful The Boy's in Singapore with me. I'm happy for you. :)

Anonymous said...

I hope your feet are clean.

John

Simple American said...

Long distance love is difficult, mui. I failed at this, but I know you are stronger than me.

Hate the Korean Soap analogy. So many stories have sad endings. Couldn't go with a Disney flick so you live happily ever after.

*hugs*

A toast to ever after.

Jane said...

It was hard I know very well about long distance relationship... but I"m glad to see you're happy..
Be strong! and believe in love... I like being in love so much!!! hehehehe... I'm sure you do too!